My mom lost her job today... and I know we'll be fine. Because God said that 'No one will be able to stand up against you all the days of your life. As I was with Moses, so I will be with you; I will never leave you nor forsake you.' Josh 1:5. Same goes with what goes on at work, no matter what happens, I know that God cares for me and 'causes everything to work together for the good of those who love God and are called according to his purpose for them.' Rom 8:28.

And coming to purpose. I have the opportunity to go to a missions trip to Mexico for a week and Im wondering if its worth it. There is no joy in going if I know that the money that I saved up will be better used to help my parents out or for the church's mission center. I got the time off approved at work. I got my mom's permission. But I dont have the urgency. I know that if I dont go this year, I can go next year - it doesnt have to be Mexico, it doesnt have to be with the same organization. Im kind of winging it, that if I get the money saved by the deadline then I'll go. I also feel reluctant to tell other people about the trip..I dont want them getting these high expectations of me that I cant fill, I dont want it to be declared in front of everyone x_x are those loser-ish thoughts?

As I looked for some verses online that dealt with our financial situation, I came across Isaiah 42:16: 

I will lead the blind by ways they have not known, along unfamiliar paths I will guide them; I will turn the darkness into light before them and make the rough places smooth. These are the things I will do; I will not forsake them.

Some wonderful stuff right there, got my inner spirit tingling. I mean, how can you fear when you've got such a mighty promise from an awe-full and all-powerful God? Gotta memorize these verses so I can use them since my mental file of verses is moot and I dont wanna spend all those times suppressing a panic-mode from reoccurring. All these promises that Im not holding onto, foolish really..

While trying to see the context of ^ I came across some more tastiness:

'I, the Lord, have called you in righteousness; I will take hold of your hand. I will keep you and will make you to be a covenant for the people and a light for the Gentiles, to open the eyes that are blind, to free captives from prison and to release from the dungeon those who sit in darkness'. Isaiah 42: 6-7 

Sure God, take my hand anytime =) Those words are not the words of someone who sees me as filth, those are the words of love that show me a world where I can be a part of mighty things to be done, chains released, demons vanquished for the one and only I Am -

'I am the Lord; that is my name! I will not yield my glory to another or my praise to idols. See, the former things have taken place, and new things I declare; before they spring into being I announce them to you'. Isaiah 42: 8-9

whooo! nothing and no one compares