Im a fangirl. Not the kind who wants to marry the person they are fangirling over, but the kind who places that person in a relationship with someone they're close to. For instance, a group member with another group member. I wont go into details. You wont want to know.

Anyway, lately Ive been into the kpop craze, something Ive been trying to avoid. Right now, the kpop boy group Beast has got my attention and unlike with other kpop groups, I like their visual style and their music. My bias is Doojoon, the leader who is goofy and adorkable:

That's right boy bite into it.

Yummy.. _______D=

Even though he is not the best looking, the most skilled or the most charismatic in the group, I'm weak for guys who are cheerful/goofy, caring and who act crazily freely. Since I dont wanna become obsessed over this group, I had to vent ... this is for you fangirls (and boys) out there. You know who you are

if i could have you hold you and

not be ashamed

love you, kiss you

and not feel dazed

cuz youre beautiful, wonderful

even if, especially if we're nothing the same

you are

you are

so far away, an ocean in between

if i take your hand

the warmth would warm my heart

and disappear as either one

steps off to the side

id be one face

that you may or may not see

for a second

if our eyes meet

you wouldnt notice

id leave

these useless thoughts

the useless feelings

i wanna be freed and yet i still think

of howd it be like with you with me

and i see see see

that youd never know me

and i should just let go

stop watching you now

stop wanting someone that i can never have

cuz you know if i had you

who knows what would happen

you dont like me, i dont like you

this is just an image

maybe im desperate

maybe i just want someone

you dont even know who i am

i gotta let you go

gotta let you go

youre not even mine

i gotta let you go

let you go

now, tonight

i'll go

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dangit